Still Waiting...

We are still here and still waiting for our referral call. The past week hasn't exactly been enjoyable. I thought #1 would be so exciting but it is just really emotional. The excitment and anticipation are unlike anything I have ever experienced. It is pretty nerve-racking to be waiting for the phone to ring and disappointing when the day ends without it ringing. Brian is hanging in there. I can definitely tell he is getting more excited about being a Dad as we near this monumental moment. He is always so encouraging to me when I get anxious and impatient. It's a good thing one of us handles this pressure well.

I have bad days and better days. I just really haven't been myself as I feel I have a big giant cloud over my head filled with pent up emotions that are just dying to be released. I can only anticipate the joy of seeing our baby's face and learning all about him - right now the anticipation is a bit overwhelming as it sits just under the surface as my days slowly go on as usual.

Last week I caved under the pressure and asked our case worker some questions about our number and the status of referrals. I was kindly reminded of the procedure and found out nothing more than I already knew. We are still officially #6 although I am 99.9% positive we are really #1 and have been for at least a week. I was told AGCI tries to focus during this time on getting families with referrals through court and that referrals would slow down a little but still be given out during the court closure. Again, nothing new.

Today travel calls went out. Congratulations to Karen and Sharon on their travel dates. They will finally be united with their children. On the other side of things phone calls went out to let families know they will not be making the court closure. I am so sorry for those of you who had hoped your cases would make it and they did not. Please keep these families, including Michelle and Jana, in your prayers as they readjust their expectations and wait until fall to meet their children.

I am really hoping for a referral before the next travel group leaves on the 26th. Even though I haven't yet seen a single picture of our son I already am hoping for more from people who travel.